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Saturday, September 20, 2003

Typical saturday morning.. work still haunting ...rain still falling... heart still aching

soundtrack: Holy Spirit Rain Down

saturday morning again... here i sit on the same old desk.. same old chair
hmmmm..... work really does suck on a saturdae eh.

Almost got caught in the rain on my way here... ran my ass off trying to
get to my office building before i get drenched.. havent ran so hard since...
erm... since... DAMN!..cant remember the last time i ran so hard already!

i think i wanna get some coffee... but my mug seem too far for me to stretch...
arrrghhh...
forget it... its too hard to make coffee on a saturday morning...-_-''

the office is almost empty... everyone still nicely tucked into their beds..
sleeping thru the rain... haiz.. wish i'm one of them.
Maybe i really am Slack Daniel as yuliang calls me..ha

Task list for todae :
1. Figure out how the hell i'm gotta get outta my office if its still raining!!!
2. Work on my final year project proposal for today's deadline
3. Band prac for tml's worship
3. Try convience myself to go to cell today

Friday, September 19, 2003

wat wrong?? nothing i guess.. dun ask me.. i dun have the answers

Weird dae... nothing seems to to be wrong even though nothing much is right.
feeling very grouchy... feeling very weird to be exact.

vinc asked me if i feeling emo... but honestly..i got nothing to be emo abt lo.. jus feeling like this all of a sudden.
wanted to go to ktv todae... haiz...but vinc gotta OT..then phoebe gotta go chiong later.. such a turn off.
Then so expensive to jus sing for a 1 or 2 hours lo...sianz...!!!

Ended up goin to nooch for dinner..THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE NIGHT!!haha
i spent 9 buck on friend hockien noodles!!!! haha..its ok lah..but the crispy noodles really sucks big time lo.
its too sweet...and the taste is weird lo.. at first i tot the tom yam was nice..but the more i ate..it only taste ok lo.
THink i'm nv gonna go back there again man...so turned off with that place.

Hmmm... wee chung still in hospital for food poisioning.. so still got no supervisor buggin us with changes..though
florence is still breathing down our necks and *diao us when we talking lo..ha. but i think she's ok lah. pretty nice lady.

think yuliang and i overheard florence calling our office chiobu's name... but we realised it was jus a nick..*chey*
tot who the hell have a dumb name called Lilo!!! haha...
Samuel came back to office today..tot he's back to visit..hmmm... but actuall he's back to collect his pay lo...
he looked funny in his shirt full of ducks.haha.. looked pretty gay to me.haha. Shocked that he dyed his hair
back to black..instead of his signiture head full of white hair.haha

bought a bag at cineleisure tonight... hmmm... quite liked it..cos its big and er... hmmm... think thats abt it..
i like it cos its big..haha. i'm so shallow eh?? arrrghhh..sianz. think the shop making big bucks sia
..so many ppl buy from it..they blocked the second level walk way tothe escalater..so everyone gotta walk one big round
around the shops to go up... not a bad idea eh.

hmm..think i better go get some work done... tml still gotta work..then gotta go for band prac for sunday's worship. hmm.

God help me please...i dunno how to lead... this stage is my shame oh lord...so help me God.


"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want,
it is the realization of how much you already have."


Thursday, September 18, 2003

How can you mend a broken man...how can a loser ever win

soundtrack: Pak Yong Ha now-"i love you so much"

Here i am again..interesting day of babe gazing..haha
found out that our office babe iz actually from SP also...
and more importantly..she only 20 years old! haha. i tot she looked like 26 or something!
but then again...so wat if she's 20.. guess she's onli an eye candy to yuliang and me
haha

i guess teresa, calvin and yuliang went to ktv after work todae...hmm wanted to go with them
but since i'm goin tml with vinc and phoebe...i guess i pass todae. We'll go again another day k pals!

one thing great abt working at litespeed is getting to know a new bunch of really interesting friends!
Used to see yuliang and clavin alot in sch before..but i only know them by name and have absolutely no
idea who they were. Getting to know them is a blessing i guess..time passes quickly when u have
friends joking around all dae with ya..and before we know it, we're already at the midst of our attachment
already.ha

Yuliang's a really funny guy.. always having some stupid comments and making funny noises for no reason.
Tot he was really gonna quit smoking..haha. i tot wrong i guess.. but if you ever read this... QUIT SMOKING LAH!!
haha...

Ho Kah Hong came over to Litespeed today..was rather shocked..cos i tot he was supposed to be still in reservist!!
but he jus arrived unannounced before our eyes... the only thing on my mind was..."damn..i havent filled in my Log!"
ha..good thing he only came to pass me and firdaus some contest entry form that ms wendy lee wanted us take part.
But guess he made a wasted trip..cos i dun think me or fir is gonna take part lo..too busy..too not interested.

i guess i finally give up on design altogether.. i cant design for nuts!!! ha. As much as i would like to be..i'm not a designer.

i got a feeling the best job suited for me would be to be a critic!!haha. all i have to do is to criticise..guess thats wat i do best!ha




feeling things are kindda different from when it first began..
i'm at a lost of wat to say...
I realised i'm actually struggling to make conversation...
i dun feel too good abt it.
haiz.



Take a breath..make it deep..cos it might be your last one

lazy to go out for lunch ... hmmm...seems to be a lazy... rainy...moody... boring afternoon eh.

sitting at my desk..slurping up cup noodle.. listening to david tao.

been doin stupid powerpoints all morning! arrrggghhh..sianz
damn!! its cold in here...why does it always have to rain when u're feeling down!?!?


Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Finally..my first official post!
wonder who is gonna read this anywae.. who is gonna care wat or who anyone is thinking and doin todae..
but watever!!

As usual todae...work work work... think i starting to get sick of my job.
One way of offsetting my boredom...EAT!
haha

Everyone starting to become a fanatic in soccer betting suddenly..yuliang ,QQ and Calvin was simply excited abt it!
haha ...interesting watching them like tat.ha

they even got caught in the rain and stuck at the bus stop at LIttle India MRT station becos they went to place their bets!ha..i had to go pass them umbrellas somemore.ha. wonder wats the use..still got wet anywae.hmmmm

thinking of someone right now... hmmm. wonder how she is right now..probably busy with her stuff i guess. She seems pretty busy these few weeks. Hope she's doing fine

arrrggghhhh...hungry now..think i goin to get dinner soon..




God Gave Me You

For all the times I felt cheated, I complained
You know how I love to complain
For all the wrongs I repeated, though I was to blame
I still cursed that rain
I didn't have a prayer, didn't have a clue
Then out of the blue

God gave me you to show me what's real
There's more to life than just how I feel
And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes
And all that I live for though I didn't know why
Now I do, 'cause god gave me you

For all the times I wore my self pity like a favorite shirt
All wrapped up in that hurt
For every glass I saw, I saw half empty
Now it overflows like a river through my soul
From every doubt I had, I'm finally free
I truly believe
In your arms, I'm someone new
With every tender kiss from you
I must confess, I've been blessed